Peek-A-Pic: Break One Day

I just finished 2 papers which was held back to back. One was on Wednesday and another one on Thursday. Wednesday's paper was a killer and I was pretty disappointed with it. When I was doing it, I had my hopes up quite high, but after I checked back the answers, hmmm.. I don't think it's gonna be great. Eventhough it's just an elective it's considered tough for me because it's a memorizing subject and I have the worst memory. =(

Imagine that you have to memorize the petrochemical products from methane, ethane, propane, butane and aromatic rings. Not just that, still got branched out some more; the products from the products of m/e/p/b .....

If that's not enough, we still have to memorize it's applications, process.... what catalyst used, temp, pressure, .......... Hmm... So I hate all this stuffs.. And was struggling with it. I'm a slow learner and a forgetful one too.. So I tried to summarize the whole chapter and memo the general structure of the chapter and made charts on how each products are related to each other, and pasted them on the walls.

left: butane, right:propane

methane

left 2 columns are oil explorations, petroleum, crude oil.... and the last one on the right is ethane

I didn't do one for aromatic ring becos I gave up writing. =(

I'm not just disappointed because I couldn't manage to memorize from a-z, every word on every line, I was even more saddened by some other stuff which you dun need to know. lols. June, you should know what I meant. But, it's all over now. Plant was ok, but as usual, didn't have time to finish like what I've expected. Bu still I tried to do as much as possible and luckily the final paper only contributed 20%.

So, the last exam of my final semester of a university student will be on next thursday, so wish me luck. I'm still not getting used to be a soon-to-be graduate and soon-to-be working lady. Haha.. Lady?? Funneh.. No one will ever treat or look upon me as a lady. A girl maybe. If they say I'm in secondary school that is already good enough. Some even go till the extend of thinking that I'm just a primary school student. >.< Am I really that immature??

Well, nvm.. I went out with darling today cos he took a day off to clear off his leave and he is still left with erm.. 1 week I guess. And we went to watch Fast And Furious 5. It was nice but I think that there was not enough of the top speed driving scene if compared to it's previous movies. But nice oso.

And we ate Manhattan Fish Market. Finally went to eat the student price set meals. Must utilize my student card fully before it expires in another 2 weeks. LOLS. Darl so lucky, he is still having his Nottingham ID and it doesn't have an expiry date on it. =.=

I think this one is the fish one

This is mine, Seafood 101 I think

Food was ok la.. haha..

Makan time

Dessert at 50%

Brownie

Did something different to my hair.

It was not suppose to be like this. I wanted to made messy side bun but my hair wasn't long enough or my skill not good enough.

So I ended up tying a pony tail at the side and curl it a little. Thx to June, Shing Yee, Min Whu and Tat Wei, I was able to do this. If you wanna know what this means, then click here.

Hmmm, I think I should stop here now. Nite.

Sometimes we find the easiest thing in the world is so hard to do

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3 papers this semester, this very last semester. And out of the 3, Petroleum seemed to be the easiest to score. And Plant the hardest. Somehow or rather, I think Petroleum would be the hardest for me. It's all about memorizing and my memory capacity is so limited. I think my brain had somewhat corroded and my brain cells are depleting. Worst of all, after doing big charts and mid maps of the general informations for each chapter, I read carefully the pass years papers and realised that, Dr. Leong loves to ask on the in between lines information. And he seldom ask bout the main production, but by productions or intermediates. My heart just skipped a bit and I felt a thousand knives had pierced through my tranquility and confidence.

And I just had one question and 1 question only, would I be able to attend my convocation in August? All I know is that I don't want to fail after all the blood and tears that I've shed for the whole 5 years of youth. I chose the wrong route I know, but my life doesn't end there. Knowing that I will have wider options in career graduating from an engineering course, I'm sure I can find a different life somewhere, and somehow. If Petroleum let me down this time, the visions I once had would be thorn and shattered. I know I'm not good enough, I'm just asking to be sufficient.

Idon'tknowwhati'mtalkingabout. BYE.

Bday Treat from Darling and Shopping Outcomes

This is a belated post cos I had been pretty busy last week, with grandpa's bday and fyp presentation. When June asked me for the pictures that I had promised, I tot she was talking bout my grandpa's bday pictures. Only now I realized that she meant the crabby post I promised her.. LOLS.. Here you go. Control that Saliva. LOLS..

Salted Egg Crab @ Lala Chong

Fried Squid @ Lala Chong

not so yummy though

So that was my bday treat from darling. I don't need to dine at expensive restaurants. I just want to eat all my favourite food with my favourite people. Live Life Simple.

I finally found an Oxford Shoe which I like and CHEAP

RM 28 @ Sg Wang

Sorry bout my fat and hairy leg

Bought this choker @ RM 12.90 at Sg. Wang for mummy to match with her dress for Grandpa's Dinner

I didn't know if she like the choker, so I bought this set also @ RM 14.90 for the whole set. Damn cheap. At Sg Wang.

The same shop sells hair accessories too and I realized that their stuff are pretty cheap.

Hair Bun Tool @ RM2.90

Ribbon Hair Accessory @ RM1.90

Velcro @ RM 1 each. They have different designs and patterns too. These 2 are the simplest ones.

My heels for Grandpa's Dinner

This is considered very high for me.

Just Imagine that a first timer had to wear these and ran around doing work and taking pictures. My feet almost broke >.< (kidding)

This was the dress I wore for the Dinner.

Single Shoulder nude dress. I look better in person than in this picture.

Somehow I look ugly in all pictures that night.

Because my hair look weird. I didn't have enough time to do my hair and there was no one to help me curl it nicely. I even put on my make up in the car. =.=

This is the only picture which I think I look ok, the rest, I look hideous. LOLS

That's all.. KThxBye.

Bulletin Post: I'm So Exhausted

I'm so exhausted, I feel like crying. Knowing that I'll be having one of the most important presentations in my entire bachelors degree life, I feel so helpless right now, for I do not have the sufficient energy to do the best. I can just hope for the best. I know I will not fail, but I want to be better. Because this is important, and it's something which I can do better. Can I like just skip the preparation process and go with the flow. I've already skipped 50% of my usual preparation processes. =(

The Memorable Surprise From Z Frenz

Since it's already after 12, I would say that today is my birthday. Happy Birthday to me. And this post is dedicated to my wonderful uni friends who had went through thick and thin with me for 4 whole years. Because they are just simply amazing. Many people say that you wouldn't be able to find true friendships in collage or university because you might not know them that well or you may not know them for a long period of time. Partly it's true but not everyone is the same. Some people just don't happen to get good companies or sincere friends. But lucky enough for me, I was destined to meet them. Fate or not, I really don't know, but still, I thank my lucky stars to fall into the category with good companies. I can't thank God enough because many a times I asked dear Lord, why am I always alone?

And then I start to think, which I already knew the answer but I just deny it sometimes, is that I made myself alone and kept myself away from the circle. All I need to do is just to break free and feel the warmth of the souls around me. And thank God I did, just right on time before I graduate from university life. And I never regret it one bit.

Like the previous year, the 3 angels asked me out for an outing after class. Last year I had no clue they wanted to celebrate with me but this year I knew. He he.. Partly it's bcos I found out accidentally (MW) and secondly I sort of suspected the trend. And since I had to go to school I had no where to run. LOLS. This time we went to Pavilion to watch a movie and had dinner. But still this was not the surprise yet. What shocked me the most was during the dinner. The 3 managed to con me and hid the surprise. I got to know that Tat Wei distracted me so that MW could tell June the plans and think of something so that the guys could carry out the surprise without me knowing. So June said that she wanna show me her feather earing which she had been eyeing (which she had) and MW wanted to go see his bag, so we parted. And I didn't have a clue on what they were up to. LOLS

When it was time for me and Juney to meet the guys at the diner, it struck me. There it was, 6 cupcakes beautifully lit up with cute alphabet candles with "We Lo Ve U Li Li" written on the 6 cupcakes. I was totally surprise bcos I never knew this was gonna happen. And Credits to MW who came up with this idea. The dinner was superb and I felt really bad bcos they spent too much just to spend a day out with me. As usual, they would not let me chip in or pay for anything. Which I think I should repay them by doing something. Just wart? NVM. I shall think of smtg later.

So the food was Mexican @ Carlos and the food was great with lovely company. I love to dine like this. I realise that I don't feel shy with them and I was just being myself. And we could talk just almost everything. I never realize that we could be this close. Sometimes I don't even have this clique connection with other frens whom I know longer or even family members. I don't feel like a stranger with them. I felt like Me.

But really sorry, there are no pictures of food in this post, cos I did not bring my camera. But anyways, I got another surprise from them. A present. The expensive dinner was already over the top but the present was too much for me to accept. Guilt!

This is an extra present Juney got for me.

I love the packaging. Hee so creative and look at the heart shaped ribbon. So sweet like her.

And Tadaaa.. the cute hair clip.. It's so sweet of her bcos she thinks that I'm cute and the clip suits me well =))))

The next pressie is from all of them, Juney, Min Whu, Tat Wei and Shing Yee dear. And this was a total shocker.

Look at this hand-made mini card by June. It's exclusive and so cute..

Juney is a genius =))

Awww so sweet rite??

handmade with <3

And the present...

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Philips Hair Straightener.

Not only that I've been eyeing it, I was already about to buy it soon. But they are just always one step ahead of me. Juney knows me best. Thank you to all my dear angels. Your thoughts and best wishes are much appreciated and remembered.

See, how wonderful my friends are. They are not only caring and observant, they are also patient and helpful. Especially the guys. They would go shopping with us and wait patiently outside the shop till we were done. Juney is a fashionista and to tell you all the truth, I start to like pretty things and be a girl, and these are all inspired by her. When I need someone to consult on fashion, I can seek in her. It's so convenient. Ha Ha. The guys are the pillar of our Chemical Engineering Course and not to forget dear shing yee too. They are the brains and they would never leave me and Juney behind. =)

Don't you think I'm lucky to have them? Grateful I am, this I know.

Well, it's getting late and I should snore now. =) There are so many things that I should be thankful for on this day. Besides my wonderful uni frens, I should also not forget my frens from PD, whom I have knew for life. And most importantly my mummy and daddy who brought me into this world. Family members who always support me and be there for me, thank you all. And last but not the least, God who had given me life. Eventhough I complain alot on how imperfect I am and how unfair life is, I'm still thankful that I'm normal and get to live a better life than some unfortunate kids. I just need to find my way out to live life to the fullest.

Thank you all for all your support, wishes and blessing. I will live a healthy and meaningful life.

-END-

Bulletin Post: Random Crap

Another lovely Saturday wasted. I have already wasted last Saturday laying down and staring at white ceiling. I was supposed to go shopping for these 2 full days. I haven got anything for my grandpa's bday dinner yet. And also the present! Oh! Plus I really need to take a break from projects, thesis and all. Antibody was low for the past one week and this made me feel so lazy and gave excuses to slack. Still not recovered from my running nose(though it's better) and the cough worsen. It left me with no choice but to see a doc yesterday. Throat tickles sometimes.

I guess due to lack of sleep and stress from the thesis and all, my chapped lips condition came back. God, eventhough it had disappeared for just a week, I cant even remember the feeling of dryness and pain of those chapped lips. I need to look good next week and I can't afford to risk those lips.

It was raining earlier, so I couldn't go out.. Plus Darling went for a confirmation talk and it will last till tomoro evening. Which means, no car for me to go shopping. =( I don't mind taking the monorail or LRT alone, but not in the rain. Such a nuisance! Haiz. Oh, I hope that the priest will be convinced that darling is ready for confirmation since he had miss mass and church activities all for a long long time. HaHa. But as what darling said, we don't have to go to the church and pray, we can pray everywhere. Afterall, it's just talking to god. True.

I hope tomoro would be a better day, so that I can go to Sg. Wang in the morning, and Bangsar later in the evening after darling's talk is over. Still thinking if I should drop by Mid Valley for the career fair but I don't think I can. Well, it's not like I'm gonna do any interview right on the spot or something. Just wanna go take a look and see if I can have wider options for my future. I'm not sure what I wanna do next after graduating, and certainly do not know what lays ahead for me. But one thing for sure, I hope I will enjoy my life and live to the fullest.

So much things to buy on my wishlist.. Haha.. but I'm so out of budget. Really dun noe where all my money went, apart from all the medical fees and expensive for the past one week. And because I thought I would get better faster if I eat yummier and better food. I resisted taking process food, less fried stuffs and there had been at least 2 types of veg on my plate since last week. Boring meals and till now still not recovered. And because I'm pretty busy lately I didn't have time to cook, ending up with deliveries and fast food =( Money flying away.

My progress was so slow till I couldn pass up my thesis by 5 yesterday, despite having only 3 hours of sleep and skipping lunch. Worse, all snacks in my home had finished and I had nothing else to eat. So I just drank water and milk to make my tummy full but still didnt work. I felt so dizzy and had to throw up before going to school to pass up thesis. I was so glad that I did that or I would have already pass out on the street or threw up in the taxi or smtg. That would be so embarrassing! I felt like forever doing those thesis, and I only had one night to correct the entire thesis cos my supervisor jus gave me back Thursday evening. I felt even more discouraged when I got to know that there was so much correction to do. Haiz. I'm so afraid that my grades would be affected cos I didn't manage to pass up by 5, and I even sent an email to the moderator saying that I would hand in late giving stupid reasons which I bet she won't believe. =( sobs. I was thinking whether I should still go and hand up the thesis or not since it was already afetr 5. And I'm sure the moderator would have already gone back. If that's the case my thesis would be sleeping in her pigeon hole for the entire weekend. Not good. What's the use that I rush like that and waste money printing the wrong thing. I might as well take time off and do it slowly but I wasn't really thinking straight the whole day yesterday. I took the school bus back to school when I was suppose to take the taxi to go print my thesis. I ended up walking out from school after reaching school so that I could print my thesis and then walk back to school to hand it in. Think back now, I felt stupid. And the whole stupid thesis caused me RM 23 smtg and I'm still gonna finalize the final details n stuffs. Darn idiot. So there goes all my money on medicine, better food and taxi fares.

Ok, feel lazy to finalize now. Go sleep better. Have to loose the stress.

Bulletin Post: The Sky Is Crying With Me

"Everbody wants happiness,

nobody wants pain,

but you can't have a rainbow,

without a little rain."(Quoted)

Fear Not. There would be sunshine after the rain. And my heart will smile again. =)

No matter how life wants us to be, we must lead life the way we want it to be. Or else it won't be call "living".

p.s:- Pictures not mine =) but they are beautiful! Words express, images too.