Bulletin Post: It's Been A While

I guess it's been almost 2 months, since I last posted anything here. A lot of things have happened in this short period. I started my very first permanent job, as an internal sales engineer. Nothing glamorous or professional cause it's just a job. I haven't really found my dreams yet, but even if I do know what my dreams are right now, it's probably not the best time for me to start with it. Ain't even sure if those dreams are gonna come true, but I just wish that someday it will. It needs alot of hard work, perseverance, faith and creativity. I've been trying to live those dreams, but I always kept them hanging.

How's work, if you ask me. It's been more than 2 months working now. I would like to express my appreciation to God, for giving me this good opportunity; Oliver Valves, my company, for welcoming me to be part of their family; Jarret and Chin Woei, my bosses for choosing me out of hundreds and gave me a chance to work for them; family and friends, for their never ending support and advice. This job may not be my dream job, it might not be a life changing job, but as a start, I would say that I have made all the right choices and I took the road less traveled by. I have good colleague/senior/boss who has so much patience in training me up. Hearing my friends' job experiences, I felt utterly lucky that I was treated well, so well indeed. He taught me everything which I'm suppose to know, had so much patience with me cause I know I'm not brilliant which is a fact and it's not something which I'm proud of. No one else apart from myself understands my limits and whatever feelings which I go through everyday. I don't mean to be funny or dumb but sometimes I really wished I didn't do what I did. Anyway, I'm happy working here at the moment and I have a friend who is now my colleague working with me. So, this is another lucky part and I still don't get monday blues. It's good, I suppose it is.

I graduated officially in these 2 months, September 11, 2011. Sorry, I won't be posting pictures here because of time constraint and I'm really tired from a day's job. So, facebook will be pretty convenient.

I received my very first significant salary, money which I had earned it with my own strength and ability. I remember feeling so excited when I saw my bank account, cause it never had so much money before. Yes, cause I'm poor. =) It was enough to feed myself, pay for the car, petrol and the list goes on. Was also thinking on how to treat my family to a nice meal using my very first pay. Was waiting for the right moment but I guess it never really came. Because, a family is not complete without everyone in it; a brother or a sister, a mom and of course, daddy. For the past 2 months, I've experienced many first times. First job, first pay, first convocation, but it wasn't complete because I went through all those first times, without an important someone who actually made me. No matter how many exciting first moments I had or will have in the future, nothing beats the fact that it's the first time I lost someone so close to me. September 3, 2011 marked another important date of my life, whereby my father chose to depart from us to be reunited with God again.

Living is difficult, adapting to new environments, dealing with different kind of people everyday, they are all tough. There's not a single day which I felt like life is so unfair, and felt like giving up, but then I thought again; there's no reason for me to be afraid anymore because I know that there's someone special watching over me, day and night. And

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.

RIP, daddy. We will always love you and keep you dear in our hearts.