Working life is almost lifeless. Routine-like, boring, stressful and tired. Goes out by 8, get stuck in the jam, work work work, get stuck in the jam again and comes home by 8. OMGEEE... That's 12 hours already. 7 hours of sleep and 5 more hours doing I-don't-know-what. Everytime I come home from work, I just feel like doing nothing. There's so much which I need to do. Like tidy my room, update blog, learn new language, start a hobby, re-arrange my clothes, ironing, upload my UK pictures.. But till now, none of these are being strike off my list. Because I'm just simply lazy and moodless to do so. Weekends are going to be different now. Don't know, just feel different. If I spend weekends in the city, it will be the usual window shopping and movie catching with darling. Nothing else special. I feel that life has been meaningless lately. And everything that has happened, I am not cherishing even a second of it. It's so mundane and I feel so lost. I don't have a direction, no aim and no purpose. I don't even know if I'm happy or content. I just wish that I can stay home and not need to go work like a routine. Probably work from home sort of thing and still generate good incomes. Good income, in my dictionary would have to be enough for necessities (house rental, car installment, good food, splurge on luxury shopping, vacation at least once/ twice a year, investments, bla..bla..bla...) Sounds too good to be true isn't it? Well, nahhh!!!! This will not happen. My life has always been strive hard to earn what you need.
Looks like it's time for me to shut up and bid tata. But before that, one song just suddenly came across my mind and I would like to share it here. I am the very oldies type. So, this song is quite old but I hope you will like it. Heaven Knows ~ Rick Price.
Thank you.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Lifeless and Directionless
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Bulletin Post: It's Been A While
Silent TearsI guess it's been almost 2 months, since I last posted anything here. A lot of things have happened in this short period. I started my very first permanent job, as an internal sales engineer. Nothing glamorous or professional cause it's just a job. I haven't really found my dreams yet, but even if I do know what my dreams are right now, it's probably not the best time for me to start with it. Ain't even sure if those dreams are gonna come true, but I just wish that someday it will. It needs alot of hard work, perseverance, faith and creativity. I've been trying to live those dreams, but I always kept them hanging.
How's work, if you ask me. It's been more than 2 months working now. I would like to express my appreciation to God, for giving me this good opportunity; Oliver Valves, my company, for welcoming me to be part of their family; Jarret and Chin Woei, my bosses for choosing me out of hundreds and gave me a chance to work for them; family and friends, for their never ending support and advice. This job may not be my dream job, it might not be a life changing job, but as a start, I would say that I have made all the right choices and I took the road less traveled by. I have good colleague/senior/boss who has so much patience in training me up. Hearing my friends' job experiences, I felt utterly lucky that I was treated well, so well indeed. He taught me everything which I'm suppose to know, had so much patience with me cause I know I'm not brilliant which is a fact and it's not something which I'm proud of. No one else apart from myself understands my limits and whatever feelings which I go through everyday. I don't mean to be funny or dumb but sometimes I really wished I didn't do what I did. Anyway, I'm happy working here at the moment and I have a friend who is now my colleague working with me. So, this is another lucky part and I still don't get monday blues. It's good, I suppose it is.
I graduated officially in these 2 months, September 11, 2011. Sorry, I won't be posting pictures here because of time constraint and I'm really tired from a day's job. So, facebook will be pretty convenient.
I received my very first significant salary, money which I had earned it with my own strength and ability. I remember feeling so excited when I saw my bank account, cause it never had so much money before. Yes, cause I'm poor. =) It was enough to feed myself, pay for the car, petrol and the list goes on. Was also thinking on how to treat my family to a nice meal using my very first pay. Was waiting for the right moment but I guess it never really came. Because, a family is not complete without everyone in it; a brother or a sister, a mom and of course, daddy. For the past 2 months, I've experienced many first times. First job, first pay, first convocation, but it wasn't complete because I went through all those first times, without an important someone who actually made me. No matter how many exciting first moments I had or will have in the future, nothing beats the fact that it's the first time I lost someone so close to me. September 3, 2011 marked another important date of my life, whereby my father chose to depart from us to be reunited with God again.
Living is difficult, adapting to new environments, dealing with different kind of people everyday, they are all tough. There's not a single day which I felt like life is so unfair, and felt like giving up, but then I thought again; there's no reason for me to be afraid anymore because I know that there's someone special watching over me, day and night. And
So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me.
RIP, daddy. We will always love you and keep you dear in our hearts.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Bulletin Post: Faith
Bulletin Post, Silent TearsFaith is a belief. And when you have faith, anything can happen.
Living is hard, so why live?
I believe that living is hard, but I have faith that I will lead a good life.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Bulletin Post: Inspirational Quotes
Bulletin Post, It's My LifeLately, I've been looking for inspirational quotes. It all started when I bought my very first Chicken Soup For the Soul(Just so happen they added quotes for every story). And I believe that there will be 2nd, 3rd...............infinity. I hope I will be able to start a collection for Chicken Soup For the Soul.
Hope is patience with the lamp lit ~Tertullian
In true love the smallest distance is too great, and the greatest distance can be bridged ~ Hans Nouwens
Take a chance! All life is a chance. The man who goes the furthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare ~ Dale Carnegie
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did. So throw off the bowlines, Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover ~ Mark Twain
When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on ~ Franklin D. Roosevelt
Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain. ~Author Unknown
Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass...
It's about learning how to dance in the rain ~ Vivian Greene
Working is not really making me tired. Just the waking up early in the mornings and driving are the ones which I'm tired of.
Still trying to cope and absorb things in lightning speed. Eventhough its not a big company and my job isn't glamorous, I'm very lucky to have a great mentor who is so patient eventhough I'm stupid. I really salute him. Thank you very much and thank you God for blessing me everyday. At work and on my way to and back from work a.k.a DRIVING.
Good nite and sweet dreams.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Fukuya
YummyliciousIt's been a long time. Now I know why people stop blogging after starting a full time job. This is the first weekend which I'm enjoying after I started working. It has been a tiring week. Not just because of the job. It's hard to catch up with the company's product, system and all. Plus I have a bad memory and slow turn around. However, I'm more tired of waking up early and getting stuck in traffic jams. Plus, I HATE DRIVING. IT'S SO BORING.
Anyway, it was darling's birthday yesterday and I didn't prepare much. Not that I forgot but I didn't have much time. So I just treated him to a nice lunch. Since he loves japanese food, so I chose to go to Fukuya in KL(beside Levain Boulangerie Patisserie).
Address:
Jalan Delima
55100 Kuala Lumpur, Kuala Lumpur Wilayah Persekutuan
03-2144-1022
I didn't get him present, cause I'm planning to get him something, which I won't tell it here, of course. :p It would have to wait, cos I'm on a tight budget now and need some time to sort things out. So ya. There's just food for now.
Birthday Boy
And Fat me (dunno why I look round lately)
Appetizers which were free I suppose cos they weren't in our menu.
Chawanmushi was awesome.
His main course, Eel and tempura with rice
I opted for sushi bento cos I dun reli felt like eating rice.
Hahaha
Look how pretty my bento set is and they were really delicious
Its miso soup
The seafood was fresh
Hot tea
Dessert and hot wet towel
Birthday boy eating his fruits
This is the restaurant(front entrance view)
They made it such a way that it looks like a modern design, exclusive Japanese home. They have private rooms also. If you come in a bigger group, you can get to dine in the private rooms. How convenient.
Overall, the service, ambience and food were excellent. Recommended to go back some time but not too often cause it's quite pricey. Dinner sets are more expensive than lunches. But I'm not very sure bout ala carte for I didn't quite go through the whole menu.
Well, that's all for this post. Quite lazy to write long long. =)
Happy birthday, dear. Many happy returns of the day.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Bulletin Post: Mol-la
Bulletin Post, Silent TearsHananim , wae? Geugeos-i chugbog i iss-eoyadoeji anh-a? Wae ileohge gaseum apeun aleu deudneun geongayo? Wae-o?
Naneun oleunjjog gwedo-e issseubnikka? Jeongmal joh-eun gihoeleul nohchin nayo? Naega sog-in doeneun geoscheoleom neukkyeossseubnida. Naega neomu babo gat-ayo. Han beon kkum gat-assda modeun jigeum-eun geojismal gat-eun neukkim .
Eotteohge haeyahanayo?
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Bulletin Post: This Is It
Bulletin PostSo, this is it. After 2 long months of lazing around practically doing NOTHING, it's time that I have finally been accepted by somebody/company. I need to say that I'm pretty lucky to be shortlisted for whatever reasons I'm not aware. But I would like to thank God for blessing me and to always look over me. My parents, especially mummy who was so concern about my first job and did everything in her power including forcing me to get a car, so that life would be easier. Also, a big thank you to darling. He practically opened this road for me. He helped me to apply for this job without me knowing head or tail about the company or the job scope. He just mentioned it to me and I gave him a green light to apply it for me. So, I guess I'm sharing half of his luck? =) Of course thanking him for accompanying me to go hunt for formal clothes which I do not favour one bit plus they are expensive and driving me all the way to get me a GPS. Yes, I will be lost without one. Last but not the least, my senior colleague-to-be(he interviewed me) who had so much faith in me for choosing me out of, I'm not sure out of how many. Also to my future boss(starting tomorrow he is officially my boss already) and also the company, for giving me a chance to be part of their family. The company in Malaysia might be small and new, but I like the close-tied environment and hopefully to grow with it. I can already feel that this company is the right choice and I have a strong instinct that everyone there are warm and helpful. Herlena who is incharge of the admin is so so helpful. I'm very grateful because she reminded me to bring a few things which I would need to use in the office and answering all my questions. I think, things will just get better. If Shing Yee gets accepted, things will turn out way better. So I would have to keep my fingers crossed and God, please help her get in.
So, dear Lord. Thank you for giving me this opportunity. I might have chosen the road less traveled by, but :
Take a chance! All life is a chance. The man who goes the furthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare ~ Dale Carnegie
Today will be my very first day WORKING. Yes, I've never really worked before. Internship was different. So I wouldn't count that in. Things might be pretty scary but I know that I wouldn't be alone. I have to be smarter, wiser, braver and more independent. Many people thinks that I should go to bigger companies to gain better benefits and prestige but I'm looking forward to stay and grow with this new little family. It might be small, but it's NOT insignificant. It's very established itself in the UK. So, many people wouldn't know. I'm leaving this to faith and believe that this time it wouldn't fail me just like that.
Perseverance is the key to success and hope is patience with the lamp lit. I shall wait and see the wonders of God's plans. God shall open up the road for me and I shall trudge it with much faith and hope.
Today will be my very first day. And I shall be heading to bed now. I didn't make much preparation like I should have. But I'm praying for the best and hope everything goes well. Thank you God for blessing me. I appreciate this very much.
Good night and sweet dreams.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
10 Myths About Introverts
It's My LifeFrom this website http://www.carlkingcreative.com/10-myths-about-introverts
Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.
Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.
Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.
Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.
Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.
Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.
Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.
Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.
Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.
IF YOU DIDN'T ALREADY KNOW, I AM AN INTROVERT. Myth 1 -10, I agree on everything almost 90% or even more.
Monday, June 27, 2011
Taiwan Touched Our Hearts
It's My Life, TripsIt has already been 2 week since I came back from my trip to Taiwan. The trip was superb and everyone had a great time, I'm quite sure. All thanks to our organizer and planner Miss Ting Shing Yee and Mr. Ng Zee Kim, our beloved classmates who made this trip mission possible. They did everything from booking the plane tix, ground arrangement tour, booking the homestays, getting us youth travel pass and all. Really thankful to the both of them for making everything so easy for us. And thanks to our Driver and Tour Guide, Peter. He was awesome. To not also forget, the 21 other classmates and trip members who had made this trip so joyful and memorable. Thank you is the only phrase I could think of saying right now. So thank you.
Below are the pictures from my trip which I have selected from a total of 700 pictures. But I had only chosen 180 pictures for this post. So, I'm very sorry for this long picture-based post. BEWARE, cause it's going to be REALLY long. If you don't want to get bored, can just close this page right now. But you could also opt to scroll down quickly and get mesmerized by Taiwan. So, lets begin....
Day 1 (2/6/11)
Group photo before boarding at LCCT
Our first destination after touching down was actually our first homestay in Feng Jia(Taichung)
This picture was taken in front of Feng Jia Night Market
The boutiques in Feng Jia looks nice but too bad we did not have time to shop there. Things are also cheaper in Feng Jia compared to the night markets and shops in Taipei city.
The famous "Big sausage wrap small sausage"
It was just ok for me.
Express manicure for only NTD 100(RM10)
Feng Jia University
Top Left: Big sausage wrap small sausage
Top Right: 6 inch ice cream
Bottom Left: Huge Takoyaki ball
Bottom Left: Sweet potato balls (yums)
Day 2 (3/6/11)
Mine and June's room in Feng Jia Homestay
Breakfast with the girls
Our first stop on the second day is a shop(Chun Shui Tang) which is famous for their pearl milk tea
So lucky to take picture with 2 leng luis.. June and Shing Yee
Second stop was Formosan Aboriginal Village
They have indoor & outdoor theme park in a cultural village
I think I was at the last row >.<
Eventhough I had the rain coat on, my whole face was drenched because I sat on the sides
The hut was very small, and since I was the smallest in this entire trip, Peter asked me to go up there.. haha
Bamboo rice(yums)
Then we took the cable car to go over to Sun Moon Lake
Ok sorry, this pic was supposed to be before the cable car pic..
In the cable car with SY, June n taikor(Min Whu)