Sometimes we find the easiest thing in the world is so hard to do

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3 papers this semester, this very last semester. And out of the 3, Petroleum seemed to be the easiest to score. And Plant the hardest. Somehow or rather, I think Petroleum would be the hardest for me. It's all about memorizing and my memory capacity is so limited. I think my brain had somewhat corroded and my brain cells are depleting. Worst of all, after doing big charts and mid maps of the general informations for each chapter, I read carefully the pass years papers and realised that, Dr. Leong loves to ask on the in between lines information. And he seldom ask bout the main production, but by productions or intermediates. My heart just skipped a bit and I felt a thousand knives had pierced through my tranquility and confidence.

And I just had one question and 1 question only, would I be able to attend my convocation in August? All I know is that I don't want to fail after all the blood and tears that I've shed for the whole 5 years of youth. I chose the wrong route I know, but my life doesn't end there. Knowing that I will have wider options in career graduating from an engineering course, I'm sure I can find a different life somewhere, and somehow. If Petroleum let me down this time, the visions I once had would be thorn and shattered. I know I'm not good enough, I'm just asking to be sufficient.

Idon'tknowwhati'mtalkingabout. BYE.